I've been feeling really tired, and sad and anxious all day. I'm hoping it's just the weather. It's been sort of raining here for the first time in a couple weeks...
I'm getting sad thinking about leaving. I have a really awesome best friend for the first time in a long while. I found a guy I'm starting to really like and I'm finally starting to build friendships with people I've always admired from a distance.
(Now I can hear Tracy saying something like, they're only being nice to you because they know you're going away. Then she'd laugh at me, and I'd try and come up with something just as sweet to say back to her, and then we'd laugh together.)
I feel like I'm falling apart from the inside out or something. My insides ache. My eyes have been watering all day. Leaking out my heart all over my face. ( I suppose that should sound poetic, but I think it might just sound a little off. :P)
I'm heading over to Saltspring Island tomorrow. I bought a climbing harness on Tuesday and I'm going to try rock climbing for almost the first time. (Actual first time was at a climbing gym in NZ, and i think I tried only a couple walls and then gave up because I thought I was crap at it.) I have other reasons to go to Saltspring, and if you know me well enough you already know what they are...
I'm going to go to kareoke tonight with Tracy. I'm looking forward to it.